Fun Saturday

What a day! A beautiful day. Started out a little rough, and ended a lot calm. I had my first nightmare about Olivias surgery last night. The first nightmare was the day we first took her to the cardiologist, but last night was my FIRST one in my sleep. Made me sick, made and scared, then as the day went on, I reminded myself, no matter what I dream, think or fear, God, the good, almighty God is always in control. As the day progressed I became calm, could have been the massage that hubby and I got together, or could have been that I was so busy with family and friends, kids and food, brothers 16th bday, cleaning and cooking that I forgot, but whatever it is, I am glad to be calm and back to "God is in Control." I feel so stupid. There are weeks I cry, there are weeks Shayne cries, and there are weeks, I dont feel sad or scared and there are weeks that I feel like I will not be able to take another breath because of smothering. But last night, a sweet lady from our church called to gather all details, tell us they would be praying and see if we needed anything. She began to cry, I couldn't. I felt so stupid and like the worse mom ever. I just told her I am so sorry, I am so numb and I dont even feel human anymore. Is that terrible, that was last night. Today, if shed called me, I think I would have cried, that human came back full force. Thank goodness it was a GREAT day, and I didnt need to cry.

The day started off with a special trip to I hop, Austin has been asking to eat there for about a month. Shayne decided yesterday that instead of our traditional home cooked breakfast by daddy, we would take him for a special trip. The food WAS TERRIBLE, but both kids ate like little piggies, and Austin said I love eating here, it was worth every penny at that moment.

We came home for a few minutes till gran gran could get here, headed out for our $39 massages that we were in DESPERATE NEED OF. We were trying to save EVERY penny that we could during this hospital stay, and somehow that all went out the window this weekend. But it was all to make us stronger, and lighter as we could. Poor hubby! He has never had a massage.... he was SNORING and I was LAUGHING. Bless his heart, I told him that lady did something right, he was OUT! Bless his heart, I feel so bad. He has so much on his mind, and has to work every day and pretend that he is just normal. Gosh I just wish I know what to do to lighten his load.

Daddy got a hair cut.

Then we all came home and all close family came over for a LAST MINUTE 16th birthday party for my brother. My brother that I love so much, Id give my left foot for, a kidney to, fight for, raise, anything. I love him. He is at an awkward age and it shows, he knows everything, gets mad too easy and sure dont see things the way we "older but wiser" folks see them! But boy do I love him! Everyone left and kids and hubby were OUT, snoring again! Gotta love it. Boy do I ever love this family. I just cant say it enough!

A good day, a blessed day, a day the Lord made, and we rejoiced in it!

TGIF! Right! So thankful for Fridays. Even though I dont have a 40 hour a week job, that I get off from on Saturday and Sunday, Fridays still are special, they mean the husband will be home tomorrow and Sunday with us!!! They mean hubbys special breakfast both mornings, they mean church on Sunday, which we so need and enjoy. Gets us fired up for the next week. We enjoy the things God made so much more on the weekends, we aren't so busy, what we get to enjoy the yard, trees, grass, flowers, sun, dark and all of the beauty. It is peaceful. This is why today I am TGIF!
This weekend we are super busy preparing for our hospital stay next week. Olivia will have her open heart surgery on Thursday May 21st. We will be at the hospital for 1 - 2 weeks. So we have Lots of preparing and planning to do, and a small massage for me and hubby, just to try and relieve some of the tension and stress. Anything to be the best we can be for our babies in the next few weeks. The Lord deals us some hands some times, we trust that eveything happens for a reason and we will come through.

Guess I forgot

WOW! Guess Ive been busy, news, kids, hubby, myspace, facebook, twitter, who knows what else. But somehow in all of this, I forgot I was trying to do a blog. I guess it doesnt really matter. I don't have anyone to follow me on here. And thats ok. It is therapy to me, to type it all and get it all out.

Guess since the last blog, things are about the same. Me and hubby are great, kids are growing. We still love the house, Im still staying home. Still have the dogs, believe it or not, and they are still my most difficult thing!!! O well, like I said before, the kids love em.

Olivia still has her heart conditions, she will undergo surgery on May 21, 2009. They will patch the hole in her heart, and clear out the blockage. We are terrified, scared, and so clutter brained that it isnt even funny. We are hangin in though, and know the Lord will lead us through. Through him we will make it and she will be strong and healthy.

I sure hope to pick up the pace on here and blog more. If you have stopped by, please pray for Olivia.